Honorable Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam said – “Dream is not that which you see while sleeping it is something that does not let you sleep”. I see dreams every night, but I always yearned for a dream like this which does not let me sleep. I could not imagine what it feels like to have an aim in life, a purpose in life that is bigger than myself. After spending 30 years of my life, I found a purpose that enlightened my soul. I have started dreaming with open eyes. This definitely did not happen overnight. My soul cut into a million different pieces. I failed and gave up several times, but fortunately, I had some people into my life who never gave up on me. At times, when I had no one, I gathered all the courage to stand up again. So, here I was – a completely new version of myself. I took a rebirth from my own ashes.
I have been taking therapy for the past 3 years now and it has helped me tremendously. I leave no stone unturned to create awareness on the importance of mental health and encourage people to come forward if they need medical attention or guidance. Some friends and acquaintances have approached me, and I share their pain in whatever way I can. A couple of days back, I was talking to one of my friends. I have been able to help him only to some extent because of the distance. I was worried about him and I prayed to God after a long time. We both shared our pain and at that moment, we healed each other.
I am feeling I am heading home. I quenched my thirst for connection, of belonging, and of peace. I closed my eyes and waited for tears to drench my soul to wash away the pain I endured, but tears were not enough for my soul to attain peace. This was when I was enlightened with the path to solace. Happiness can only be obtained by wiping tears, peace can only be achieved by resolving conflict.
When I went to bed that night, all I could think of how I could work on creating awareness on mental health in Indian society. What should be the agenda? Or should I conduct a survey first? I have already been doing extensive research on how to form an NGO. But I was concerned about the funding and how I would continue it with my job. I could barely sleep that night.
This was when I remembered the quote by respectable Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam “Dream is not that which you see while sleeping it is something that does not let you sleep”. I feel so fortunate to have found my dream which does not let me sleep.